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June 2010



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Here we go again

Ok, so I haven't updated this for a while because (basically) my life has been one big emo roller coaster the last 7 months. Are things getting better? I don't know, but I'm seriously making an effort to fix everything up.

The last time I posted was, what? January? James and I had gone on a break, and I though we were done forever. 24 hours later, we called the break off and began patching up our relationship.
We're still patching things up left, right and centre. Mostly, it's my fault. I'm not going to lie - I literally went insane and gave up on everything. Can't really expect a boy to bounce back from that now, can you? I can't tell what the future holds for him and I anymore, but I think that the less I think about our future the better. It's really about the here and now, and getting through each day. We spent a lovely weekend together at my house in front of the log fire, toasting marshmallows, playing with expensive cameras and watching movies. Maybe one day he'll tell me he wants to marry me again, and I sure as hell wont take that for granted again. 

The last few months I have experienced some of the happiest moments of my life from Caesar - previously unmentioned in this blog, he is my 6 month old guinea pig. I love that rodent more than life itself, and I would do anything for him. I'm grateful to have him, even when he gets he shits with me wanting to hold him all the time and nipping at my thumbs. His squeaks entertain me, and Mum and I have taught him to Beg, Stretch and use the litter tray. He's such a beautiful animal. I'll post pictures later. The strange thing is that I keep having nightmares that I lose him; that he dies etc. They happen almost every night and it's starting to bug me. :( Not cool, huh?

Surprisingly, I'm still at uni. I'm halfway through my degree and have just enrolled in the winter semester. I'll be juggling two units (French and Web Design) with my part time job at a private health insurance company which doesn't sound that difficult. Right? Eeeeeh. Wrong. I've been uber sick lately with the stomach specialist telling me I might have Crohn's disease so I'm living every day with constant nausea and horrific stomach cramps. Just recently too, my kidneys have started to give me some trouble, so this time next week I'll be fronting up at The Hound's office, demanding some assistance for this crippling state of health and seeing what answers he still doesn't have for me. Last night was the worst .... severe cramps, near vomiting, body tremors. Ew. Hate it so much!

So that's a super quick update for now ... I'll post again later on when I have a bit more time on my hands. For now, it's time to go to work. *le sigh*